Amarna Miller: Former Porn Star Interview
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| Amarna Miller interview |
When did you start fe*ish modeling and under what circumstances?
I started posing nude when I was about 18 years old. I was very self-conscious about my body. I didn't like how I looked. I had a boyfriend who was a photographer.
He was telling me that I was very pretty. I didn't believe him. He took pictures of me, and when I saw the pictures it was such an amazing epiphany. I suddenly understood that I had a distorted view of my body.
How I was seeing my- self was not the real me. I started posing mostly as a therapy to find that agreement in my head and to feel good about my- self.
At some point, I was really liking it. I started modeling because of him. When I finished the university, I was also doing porn at that point.
When I had to choose what to do with my life, I felt like this is doing well. I really like it. It gives me the freedom that I'm looking for.
What fetishes do you like and what do you fe*ishize in your life?
I'm really into BDSM, so I suppose my range of fetish is really wide. Also, my sexuality has been evolving a lot, especially in the last year. I really like anything related to leather and latex. I love shibari. That's why I started in BDSM. I like electricity and I have a fetish for uniforms. I really like men in suits. I like schoolgirl uniforms. I went to Japan, and I promise that my backpack on my way home was all schoolgirl Japanese uniforms.
Did you start with geisha po*n or fetish p*rn?
I really liked porn as a viewer before starting as a model. I liked the girls, and I wanted to be one of them. I have a very high libido. I'm very se*ual, and I was feeling- ing very comfortable in front of the camera. I thought porn could be a good orientation to my professional career. I wanted to do something with my se**ality but I didn't know what. When I turned 19, I decided to get into the adult industry.
Have you ever been spanked?
Yes. I like it, but it's not the kind of pain that I like the most. I like more to be spanked than be the spanker. I'm more a masochist than a sadist. I really don't like to give pain to other people unless there's an SM component. Then I like it because the other person is having pleasure through it.
What's the wildest thing you've ever done on or offset?
In one of my first porn shoots, they asked me if I had any ideas for the shoot. I told them about shibari, and my ex-boyfriend at that time was a rigger. The company had no idea how to do it. I told them that I couldn't be suspended for more than 20 minutes because it seriously hurts my body. I was suspended for one hour. My hands were blue, and it was awful! So that was pretty wild. In my personal life, this story really turns me on. I was with my boyfriend on a plane and we were getting really horny. Everybody was asleep, but we couldn't do anything because of the stewardesses. I asked my boyfriend to take a glass of juice to the bathroom and come in it. He came back and I drank it. It was a small, stupid thing but it turned me on.
Have you ever gone to an SM club?
I have tried to go to SM clubs in Japan, and it's pretty closed. It's very complicated. My boyfriend is fully covered in tattoos, and in Japan, that's kind of a problem if you want to go to places. Between that and being foreign, they didn't let us in. I think you have to know someone Japanese.
Have you ever been pissed on or pissed on someone?
Yes, I really like watersports and golden showers.
What do you think about a*al?
I like anal. I think that the mainstream porn industry does the kind of anal that is very rough and intense to receive. That's the reason why people think that anal is violent or too much.
If you did it in a normal way, like using lubricant and giving time to your body to relax, I think it can be very pleasurable. It's another way of receiving pleasure other than vaginal.
Are you more interested in the art of fetish modeling or the sex of fet*sh po*m or both?
I think both. I'm interested in being out of my comfort zone. Anything that takes me out of what I'm used to doing is cool Like for example, I've been in the porn industry for quite a while, so I'm starting to get bored of the normal mainstream shoots—five positions and five minutes per position and then the cum-shot.
Everything is the same. I'm trying to do more fetish stuff and other orientations, like more queer or feminine porn because it's different. As long as it's new, it's fine.
Is there anything else you'd like the TAM readers to know about you?
I always consider myself a free soul like a modern hippie. I'm in this industry mainly because I want to do it and I want to explore parts of myself and my sexuality. It's not because I want fame or money.
Are you in a fetish lifestyle partnership?
Yes, I'm into BDSM. For me, 24/7 doesn't work. It's more a game and a part of my sexuality that I like to explore. But I don't want to do that 24 hours a day. I am not ready for that just now.
